Chrysalis-

As I'm walking along this tightrope in an unfamiliar mind state
it kind of looks like a road filled with unassuming primates
and right then I awaken in the same bed as the one I made in those days
but now I call them these days
and even though I'm still a little kid who needs praise now I can laugh when the leaves change
open a one-way door, close it and lock it before the heat escapes
see I've never really been the type to seize the day
I'll take the easy way, the kind that everybody knows and so nobody really needs to say
and as similar patterns emerge I'll lead the way to freedom
as long as we can have a massage train of lost people trying to beat the demons out of our backs
'cuz new beginnings are great,
the issue is that lingering bad taste in your mouth from the last thing that you ate
and it caused you to force growth, blame the teenage years on hormones
so what's your excuse now, you're the same person just more alone
well fancy that they're not your friends, you just use 'em to distract you from everything that you lack
and you wouldn't feel right going back
if you spend your whole life wondering what's the next step
you'll go nowhere and get buried alive (But I'm not dead yet!)
you gotta walk on the rocks and dirt, and pretend that it doesn't hurt
to eventually reach that greener grass on the other side of the earth
and the search is never over so you wonder why you even care
so far the odds are all stacked against you, it just doesn't seem fair
it's a long road, and once in a while you fall asleep in a new place
just to wake up wishing the new one had the last one's face
but there's no turning back, and you wouldn't if you had a chance
'cuz every time you try to climb that mountain you wind up under an avalanche
Emotional baggage packed, and stored under the train
but now every blurry landscape looks the same

You gotta pick from the bottom of a house of cards
trying not to knock the whole structure over
Believe me it sounds as hard as it is
so you better take a photo but not so close up
Rebuild the house on a steep hill
Keep people out that you need still
wondering what is this life gonna do for me?
Will it kill these flashback bad dreams?
And at the bottom of a house of cards
is where you keep all your regrets and scars
and you're too scared to go to the basement
you'd rather just forget who you are
Move on to a new dawn
It'll all make sense when you say it in the past tense
Now you're just to close to it to admit that it's over with

Just another chapter to encapsulate this unfolding disaster
If anybody asks for me tell 'em I'll be out back rolling with laughter
in a new suit still trying to figure out who's who
with a few screws loose but I got a couple new tools to tighten 'em back up
Now I don't have love like I used to and that sucks
but that's life I guess, a quest to get back your innocence you live in a death trap
and you better enjoy it steadfast while you've still got thoughts in your head to grasp
around now is about the time you drown out the clouds and bow to the sunshine
and you were not ready for the take down
Fuck what you said. Do you mean what you say now?
The kids run around the cemetery leaving the ghosts nowhere to go so they roam the playgrounds
in a final attempt to reach heaven, it's what they're trying to get with each lesson
climbing the steps to break bread with the ones that already escaped the same head and again,
some'll come back to life when they should've just stayed dead, but then
in the midst of all this wishing to live flawless you put yourself into the cause kid
now running back isn't an option, stop when you realize that you've lost it
move on into a place where a smile can embrace your face at least for a while
Taste the bile on the back of your tongue, and one by one let the past crash into the sun
And it's all over now, but it's alright you're a man with a horse and a plow
New pasture ahead, 52 new cards but I'm the Joker, the Jack is dead
and the Queen killed him in a scene seldom seen by esteemed villains
but the crown won't fit the King's head
Sit down and relinquish everything you said
'cuz ain't no take-backs the future's here
looking like you're about to puke from the fear
Old to new is cool to a youth but as you grow it gets difficult to let go
Just know it's not the end, the blueprint's set for the castle
so next time when you decide to rebuild you know to make it less fragile

You gotta pick from the bottom of a house of cards
trying not to knock the whole structure over
Believe me it sounds as hard as it is
so you better take a photo but not so close up
Rebuild the house on a steep hill
Keep people out that you need still
wondering what is this life gonna do for me?
Will it kill these flashback bad dreams?
And at the bottom of a house of cards
is where you keep all your regrets and scars
and you're too scared to go to the basement
you'd rather just forget who you are
Move on to a new dawn
It'll all make sense when you say it in the past tense
Now you're just to close to it to admit that it's over with

Same eyes, same ears, same images
same head, same heart, same distances
same eyes, same ears, same differences
same head, same heart, same chrysalis